Saturday, April 21, 2012

What a mess

Dear Lord,
If I ever get to far from home. I know you will catch up with me and guide me in the right direction.

What a mess~

What a mess you can feel like when you are struggling...

With weight issues
With health issues
With family issues
With financial issues

Sometimes it feels like you are never going to be able to get over the mountain. God says, cast all you cares upon him because he cares for you. We have to believe and have Faith that God will only gives us what we can handle.

The last few years I have really struggled with why God was calling so many of my loved ones "Home". They had to endure illness and pain and I was deeply hurting.

When my Grandparents passed, I had never felt so much pain.

Why did God have to take them from me?

Now I look back at my weight gain and most of my excess pounds were put on during the last 5 years. Food was my main source of comfort, it filled the void. It comforted me in my time of loss.

I realize now, I should have turned to God and not to food to fill my breaking heart. I still miss my loved ones terribly, but if I need to cry, I cry. I do not eat a whole bag of Doritos(even though I would like to sometimes).

I have come to see that God will put us through trials, but not to hurt or break us, but draw us closer to him.

Isaiah 41:10 says- Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous hand.

God you are my rock!


  1. YOu're right. It's so hard to turn to our faith instead of Doritoes right in front of us but you're right....good post.

  2. God loves it when we are open and honest with him about our struggles! Keep going girl and keep relying on God. You are an amazing person!

  3. It's hard for me to relate to this since I don't have religion in my life.. I'm basically just doing it for myself, without any divine help/support. I'm glad that you have something in your life that you can lean on though!

  4. I cannot tell you how many times have prayed about this! I still struggle, and I always feel like I'm letting Him down.