Sunday, April 29, 2012

Sunday morning worship

Do you ever struggle on Sunday mornings to get up and make it to church?

I usually never do, except when my family is gone and it's just me at home. Like this morning, I woke up on time and had some coffee and thoughts started filling my head. The devil was trying to do his best to keep me at home and not attend worship service this morning.

Some of the things he was trying to tell me were~

*"You can sleep in, go ahead"
*"Just relax and skip church, your family isn't here to go with you anyway."
*"You can skip just this one time"

Get out of my head already!!

I might not care if I skip church but God does and I want to worship him everday with or without my family with me.

I went to church by myself today:-)

Satan you will not get the best of me!

Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. James 4:7

Saturday, April 28, 2012

The last few days

Thank you for all your wonderful comments lately, you are so kind.

The last few days I have been super busy baking for my husbands annual father/kids camping trip. There were 30+ of his friends and their kids and his dad going this year. That's a lot of breads and cookies to make. They were having meals to no worries:)

I also thought I had my plan of what I was going to do with volunteering all figured out, but once again God through me a curve-ball and I got a call Thursday(the same day as my meeting) for an interview at one of our local hospitals. So Thursdays meeting is on the back burner until I have my interview on Monday and see where that leads. I am trying not to get my hopes up, but could definetly use some Prayers!:)

Thank you:-)

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

God you amaze me!

In an earlier post I asked for Prayers about what to do regarding my "free" time now that my children will all be in school all day next year.

Well, God had really been guiding me down the path to volunteer. I have been blessed to be able to meet with a local Christian adoption agency to give of my time and love of God:)

I am thrilled!! Please Pray as Thursday I will meet with them.

God is good all the time!

Saturday, April 21, 2012

What a mess

Dear Lord,
If I ever get to far from home. I know you will catch up with me and guide me in the right direction.

What a mess~

What a mess you can feel like when you are struggling...

With weight issues
With health issues
With family issues
With financial issues

Sometimes it feels like you are never going to be able to get over the mountain. God says, cast all you cares upon him because he cares for you. We have to believe and have Faith that God will only gives us what we can handle.

The last few years I have really struggled with why God was calling so many of my loved ones "Home". They had to endure illness and pain and I was deeply hurting.

When my Grandparents passed, I had never felt so much pain.

Why did God have to take them from me?

Now I look back at my weight gain and most of my excess pounds were put on during the last 5 years. Food was my main source of comfort, it filled the void. It comforted me in my time of loss.

I realize now, I should have turned to God and not to food to fill my breaking heart. I still miss my loved ones terribly, but if I need to cry, I cry. I do not eat a whole bag of Doritos(even though I would like to sometimes).

I have come to see that God will put us through trials, but not to hurt or break us, but draw us closer to him.

Isaiah 41:10 says- Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous hand.

God you are my rock!

Friday, April 20, 2012

God is my GPS

God's path for me isn't to be skinny or to show off newly purchased outfits(I am guilty of this). It is to be healthy and content while honoring him.

I thought I had my diet "path" all figured out yesterday and was ready to hit the road, but God stopped me at the first stop sign.

Everything I was reading yesterday, songs I was hearing on the radio were about how we determine our worth, and not by waiting for that certain "something" to happen before really starting to live our lives fully.

I do not want to waist my life away waiting for the scale to show me that I am good enough. I have been shown by losing many people that have been close to me that God can call us home at any minute. I do not want to dwell on weight all the days of my life.

God put this verse in front of me yesterday.

"If you want to be perfect (whole), go, sell all your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me."

Yes Lord I will follow you~

I want to be healthy...
Not obsessed

I want to be alive...
Not just living

I want to be strong...
Strong in Faith

I want to start living for my health, for my family. Not a number on the scale or a number on a tag.

By Prayer and healthy choices I will continue on this journey not by any type of "plan".

I have been really Praying about a lot of things lately. Regarding my job, what I am planning to do once my children are all going to be in school all day next year. I feel God is trying to show me his plan for me.

Prayers are greatly appreciated:)

"Do not conform to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind."~ Romans 12:2

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Being ready doesn't mean you are

My husband is always telling me that I just need to stick with one thing (like dieting). It's my personality to like and thrive on change. I am always changing my clothes, at least 2x a day, moving around my furniture, changing hair styles...It's just ME.

I get bored.

I AM going to cut out most of my carbs again, while still changing some of my families food choices to healthier clean ones. I think changing pastas, peanut butter important for them even if I will not be eating those same foods.

I am still eating all whole foods and no processed foods on Atkins. Eggs, cheese, meat, salads:) etc.. are still very healthy options. I am looking forward to seeing the results after the first week back on plan. So I will do a 1 week weigh in next Thursday.

Looking forward to sharing the results with all of you:)

Monday, April 16, 2012

Oh, Mondays how I dislike you!

Well this weekend just flew by! I am going on my third night straight at work and it has been super busy. I am ready for a few nights off, especially now that my little guy woke up @5:00 am this morning running a fever:(

A mothers work is never done...

I am hoping to still get some things done today even though I have a sick little guy at home with me.

I don't know about any of you other working mom's out there, but when I am at work the laundry and other house work is always waiting for me when I get home to "have time" to take care of it.

Calgon take me away...:)

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Changing is hard

As you know from my last post I have decided to change some of the foods I eat. I was all for totally switching everything to a Clean Diet but, it is really hard! I love food and a lot of it is WW meals, granola bars, etc.. But I AM trying:)

*This was my first attempt at changing my Breakfast OK..this was horrible! It tasted terrible, actually it didn't taste like anything. I am thinking smoothies maybe a better option for me. I love flavorful foods and oats is not one of those for me. Trial and error I guess:)

*Now this was good! I switched our regular JIF peanut butter and bought lightly salted Organic rice cakes. I really like this for a quick snack:)

* I love salads as some of you know, but I tried switching my favorite ranch dressing for rasberry vinegrette.

NO , I do not like it sam I am ;-)

This is not really going so well is it??!!

I like what I like I guess, not sure if that is going to change. Lol

I guess after 33 years I am still the picky, little freckled face red-head my momma made sit at the kitchen table all afternoon until I would finish my ham loaf;)

Friday, April 13, 2012

Weigh in #27

Results for this week...

+/- 0lbs.

I stayed the same, but I am healthier than ever and I wouldn't trade that for anything:)

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Thursday's thoughts...

Everything is going great lately:) The scale is at a standstill but good things come in time. I know God is right here with me promising to be here with me on my healthy-eating journey.

I read Psalm 107:18-20 this morning and WOW!! All I can say for today is...

"All my Jesus girls say, Amen!"

Friday, April 6, 2012

Weigh in week #26

Good morning everyone!!

Here are this weeks results~


It's not great, but it's a loss:-) Slowly but surely I am getting close to the 50 lb. mark!!

Have a great weekend everyone, and a Happy Easter!

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Thursday's random thought

I really dislike fat free vanilla creamer:P
I thought since it was only 25 calories per serving I would try it....


I will take the extra 10 calories, if it makes my coffee taste great;)

What a sacrifice;) hehehe

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Easter Outfit

I am doing one last fitting today and practicing walking in these shoes;) lol
Pray I won't fall on my face!
My phone has a terrible camera..sorry if the pic is fuzzy:(


When do you remember not being on a "diet". I have always been a small child. In middle school I was my heaviest, during those years of "change". In high school I changed my eating habits, not on purpose, it just happened. Boys came along, I was very social, worked and the extra pounds came off. Then I got pregnant with my first daughter I was wearing a 14/16 at 9 months, I thought I was going to die!! That was FAT for me having always been a 9 slim. WOW if I had only known almost 16 years later I would love to be in a size 9 slim, and I mean those 9's were straight out of the drier and fit like a glove;) Paired with a tight top and boots and I was ready for the day!
I know realize I am not ready to be a 9 slim and living on animal crackers and Diet Coke:) I need MORE! I still love my Diet Coke though.
Someday's I feel like if I even smell a donut and not only do I gain weight, but something somewhere gets squishier;)
Thanks for letting me ramble on today!

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

The definition of a really bad day

What do you consider "having a bad day"?
I sometimes think it's when I have a rough night at work, and my residents have gotten to my boiling point.
Sometimes I think it's when my kids are just driving me NuTs!
Most often it's when I feel physically bad, like when the scale says I put on a few pounds, or if my clothes just aren't fitting how I think they should.
Even a bad hair day can make me feel this way. But I have really been working on changing my way of thinking. I know people hate to hear "there are so many people worse off than you, so you should be greatful"...but you/I really SHOULD:) I am not sitting in a doctors office week after week receiving chemo treatments, I am not living at a nursing facility, I am not abused. I could go on and on.
I am having a GREAT day today, because God has promised to be right here with me every step good or bad. He allows for us to have our "bad days" but remembering he is always there to hold our hand makes it feel like everything is going to be alright:)

Monday, April 2, 2012

Sorry for being MIA!

I have really missed my blog... My account was hacked and I had some other issues with this account so I needed to get everything straightened out. Everything is looking good now and back in order:) So glad to be back!! Love, Michelle